What to do when you don't want to go to bed...blog

I'm tired, really tired, but I don't want to go to bed.  I've been having strange dreams lately.  This is not a new situation.  I often have strange dreams.  They usually precede a period of transition...change.  Oh, have I mentioned I hate change?

I have always been change averse.  I like stability.  I think that comes from my fractured childhood--too many moves, too many schools, too many homes that weren't my own.  Yes, I like things to remain the same.  I like to know that what happens one week will probably happen the next, that the address I'm living at will be where I'll be living a year from now.  I order the same thing at restaurants where I often go.  I wear the same style of clothing I wore five years ago.  I am comfortable with consistency.

However, I know that change has to happen for one to continue to grow as a human being.  I know the world changes around me whether I want it to or not.  Change is really is consistent.  I should embrace it.

But here I am, sitting in front of my computer, writing to keep from going to bed and dreaming.  Shakespeare understood dreaming.  He has Hamlet say in his soliloquy pondering whether he should continue life, "to sleep, perchance to dream."  He also left Bottom with the idea that his meeting with Titania was only a dream.  I wish, like Shakespeare, I could write the course of my dreams.

Truth be told, I know I have to change.  Sometimes I wish I could it without the vivid dream life.  Well,  I've blathered enough.  I can't put it off any longer.  I've got to go to bed.   "To sleep, perchance to dream."  Good night all.  Wish me sweet dreams.